journey

Alone in the dark
will and wish digested by a violent arc
with the picture shedding its erotic color
dead are the fresh coffin flower
wild plants wild flowers wild weeds
banking on rots ,suffering for my deeds

a moment of persistence
would have made the ship to sail with lesser resistance
now the clock has freeze
the tide is still
someday,somewhere the silver lining will be for real
the sail has failed
hopes de-railed
with affections around
hope to stop palpitating round and round

the night brings down the dark
livin in a tank surrounded by shark
awaiting the sea in the northern sky
once wishes are granted cnt b undone till u die
the innocence and the rapist
are friends vn locked in a cyst
death n freedom awaits me
arising from the ocean shes coming for me..
nailed to the cross m bleeding to freedom
all shall hail me..when i leave the kingdom
none will violate the void
none will b high coz of pink Floyd
explosion in my sun
at the end it wasnt for fun
barriers between two world
makin me warrior
blood and peace m fighting against
fuckin up my saviour

decision

its decision that i had 2 take
its decisions that make me repent
life has assumed everything for u
i hate most of them i like very few

embrace the dark here i lay
under the open sky 2 fate i pray
let there be greenery everywhere
but..no castles of dismay

eyes cried overnight like ruby they look
biting the ebony teeth
plz erase few viral line from my life's book
now i am firm on my feet

i now have no ones trust
every kiss i plant is taken as lust
i could if i wanted 2 deliver a thrust
life n judgment..they both have been unjust

sea..

wave after wave
infinitely smashin the shore
where i sit alone n want no more
o sea how free u cn b
its for no1 u stop n see
u splash n gather never realizing wat u tk along
eventually u return it..carefree n give back wt eva u take along
how cn u b so..careless
how cn u b so heartless
u take away most precious thing
n then ask forgiveness touchin the feet
the things u tk,u may never need
still u r shameless ill characterd
ur urges r like slut ..it makes no difference to u
but effects ppl u encounter
die sea rot in agony...
feel the pain u cause
amongst the things u tk,cn u eva choose?
u r being so happy cause u have nothing to loose

what when how why

happy days..

another tear rolls down
tird of wiping..
the habit of "living with it" i found
tired of forgiving

as a blink makes tears 2 rush
tird of consoling
laughing on my childhood crush
tired of forgetting

as i breathe in deep
tired of regretting..
closing my eyes forgetting in my sleep
tired of thinkin

a few cheerful days
a day wid the bright sun
a few moments wid u by my side
"the few happy days" has jus began..
*********************sanju

nothin lasts for eva...

while returnin home
my heart stays back thr
n it goes 4 a roam
fate has been unfair

locking my jaw
trying 2 b a stud
i ignore the flaw
heart still roamin lik a bird

jus blink 1nce
hate 2 open ma eyes then
as a rare tear rolls
i am being very weak my friend

da happy days r ova
no more laughs n gossips
forget u neva
u were all gods gift

yes its the last day of my college life
n 2de i stop fakin the beast i am
its very hard 2 survive
but 2de so weak n lonle 1nce again i am

mirror

i stand in front of a glass
afraid 2 look at myslf
eye lids shut n eyebrows tight
hate 2 open
i knw the reality
but scared 2 face it
i dared
i dared 2 look at it
pupils enlarged
bloodshot eyes
filed wid lies
a fake n absolute synthetic world
i live in
i was happy then
the reality is a tyrant
a face alike mayem
nails tries 2 help 2 scratch it off
but i vain
unbearable is the inflicted pain
uproot my hair punctured my nose
bit my tongue hard
2 taste the blood
y me y i am y fuckin me
i hate the mirror
n hate the reality called me

i am brutal

m fuckin brutal...
i seek blood from the limbs of infants
m fuckin brutal
i yield salvation from the cries of virgin
m fuckin brutal
i chop the fingers n watch her blood stream
lying in the bed of wet blood
wid fire burning her skin
torched her coz she ddnt love me
thanx kerosene
she is only mine
her smile is to me very sublime
eyes only 2 see me in pain
palm 2 sooth me but in vain
i am brutal
choked her with ma half lit candle
kissed her cold lips for the last time
scooped her eyes out coz they are only mine
her drapery was silk
skin white n lifeless alike milk
i am brutal i lay wid ma arms around her
huggin her tight
i am brutal
i scar my face 2 prove ma love for her every night

b afraid b very afraid

i am brutal

m fuckin brutal...
i seek blood from the limbs of infants
m fuckin brutal
i yield salvation from the cries of virgin
m fuckin brutal
i chop the fingers n watch her blood stream
lying in the bed of wet blood
wid fire burning her skin
torched her coz she ddnt love me
thanx kerosene
she is only mine
her smile is to me very sublime
eyes only 2 see me in pain
palm 2 sooth me but in vain
i am brutal
choked her with ma half lit candle
kissed her cold lips for the last time
scooped her eyes out coz they are only mine
her drapery was silk
skin white n lifeless alike milk
i am brutal i lay wid ma arms around her
huggin her tight
i am brutal
i scar my face 2 prove ma love for her every night

new brutal lines commin soon

ds 1 was ritn vn i gt high on marijuana 1 yr back on a very hot n humid day.....ftr intoxicatin gt involved in a brawl n bashed a guy....i smhw at tht mommnt wntd 2 c more blood...n hence cm back home n rote it...jus switchin the sex...female instead of male...

the walk in the rain

the day was wet..
n its the 1st tim in dis week v meet
forgot 2 carry a shield
plan 2 get drenched all alone in the modern field

waited for u ....its was a long hlf n hour
clock was ticking slow..gradually gt slower
i saw u commin..with a smile on ur face
the world was lit with beauty n grace

hd so many things 2 say
yet lips stitched..jus lik everyday
hesitated fingers brushing against ur's
shy eyes cdnt look at urs..

as the thunder struck u held my hand tight
amazed ,the heaven poured the tears of joy njoying this sight
the breeze was strong ..and against us
hld u tight was,stomping teh soil carcass

the walk,left my eys wet
the breeze still mks me to shiver
the ambiance i do seldom create
but nw u rnt nemore here

as i luk back i gt low
as i regret i convice maslf 2 dope
coz now u r walkin holdin anothr hand
shd hv knw the fate is never 2 be carved on the face of sand..