"what was it?" i ask.

where have you lurked?
to whom have u barked?
was it the desolate sky?
was it the shiny moon..
what made your inside barren so soon?



was it the blue ocean?
was it the distant frown?
was it the galloping waves?
was it the alien pebble?
what made you to turn away..?



was it abandoned fleet?
was it the echo of indulgence?
was it the high wall?
was it the walk on a windy shore..?
what made you to sway no more..?



lost in the melancholic sighs
trembling tumbling frolic smiles.
jittery sights..resisting kites,
they say you still breathe, exhaling highs.



was it all because the will flared?
or the soul had a part to play?
detesting end, convinces the wrecked cart,
even the time wanted to play a part.

Phase

whimsical winds breezing strong,
instances are always complained about and wronged.
the wait has been taking a toll
Alas! harsh times are on a roll..

those streets are desolate
those streets are empty
renovation could not mend the damages done
petrified the soul wants to run..

running down the time
running up the steeps
palpitating reasons are getting dry
every stride seems like a series of accumulated leaps

tiring awaiting hurling self
desperate anxious to take a diversion
moment may bring about the great fall..
till the end,i will b sparing nothing at all.

its just a wait..
wait wont be over at all
waiting for the time which wont ever arrive..
still i wait and i do not mind at all..

intruded vicinity

tried hard , thought i would anticipate the estranged feeling well..failed. 27th March yet another year, its inexplicably different as different as every 27th March has been.
maneuvered myself to some hang outs, party .. i should thank upamanyu dasgupta (upo) and sambit chakrovorty and ganga and chayan for unknowingly helping me beat the stress..
lost amongst the chuckles and shimmers of spirit. quietly propelled the thought out of the zone. yet the thing was too heavy to handle..finally gave into it.
Amazed awestruck..ashamed about my deed. it felt as if i skipped a couple of beats..palpitation got the better of me..i made up my face wid broad smiles..where my eyes would not be a help to the sensitive conclusions. tried sipping 2 -3 shots then tried gulping them gradually things started to get nasty...then the membrane broke and a drop rolled down the cheek. un-noticed , un-interrupted.somehow i allowed its down fall, my resistance would attract unnecessary attention..i definitely did not want that...
this post will be safe here..as safe as others have been,..may be i have to face the interrogation later..but i somehow manage to be "ok" with things..m sure there will be yet another being "ok" phase...m sorry for being so late(virtually).. HAppy birthday...wish u the very best and good health where ever u are...with whoever u are..take care "sugar"