thy time shall sentence me

i had a dream of being an encyclopedia of intoxication ..but thanks to my ma now all hope is gone
and from the core of my heart i express that i dont regret it.
there was time when i craved for a drop of alcohol a drag of weed or few tablets that would take me closer to my dream.
with a heart full of pride i declare that i have digested these few so called "bad" urges .
now as i stand here and look back ...i regret the fact that i was an irresponsible child..a disloyal boyfriend and an insensible human being.
now the only things thats stands in the way of me and absolute purification is weed.
i wish to do away with it once i recover from my injuries i suffered because of my accident and re-join my gym...
i am really looking forward to walk on the path of serenity and bliss of self-actualization.
i thank everyone who has n will corporate with me
thank you for being there with me when i needed u the most...
thank you

lal selam ....REST IN PEACE

pain is timeless

I nevermourn, I never look back
as long as Thy phosphoric rays
grant me more pleasure than pain
I, who is evil can receive no good
though I still crave, I'm yearning for
Thy healing touch ov grace...

the end

my head is on the verge of faking a volcano eruption...
i don't know what would calm..it..i have got weed enough to make me stoic ..but my parents aren't asleep yet..
i cant dope while they are awake n alert.i need silence i need privacy n most importantly i need my parents to be asleep n unaware..
its true..the world is round n after walking a considerably long path u tend to reach the same point...from where your cursed journey has started.
i am fed up.but not totally fed up.yet i try hard to console i do regret rarely cause i don't believe in unproductive activities.
some one somebody do something to end it once and for all...if u are reading this then i must thank u..cause as i am writing this my nerves are getting over saturated..it may happen any time...n u may ultimately experience the end.

help me plz help me..i plead"this is nt a rite up"

kill me please..
the bullets i fired once r here 2 puncher my heart.
i dnt wanna die of my own stab my own stagger
help me i plead kill me..is thr any 1 readin this..plz pray 2 wuevr u think is worth..
but make sure i mus die..dat too soon plz..kill me

some night

"some night
the moon will shine for me
the waves recreate melody
eyes of trust will light
a shelter for a lost kite
some night..

the trees wud flex
prayers wud respond irrespective o sex
tears will roll to complement smile
the morning wont be a personality fight
after some night...

ur tender words wud feel my hearts cheek
mom wont throw rusty words on an abnormal disheartened freak
there would be a purpose in my sight
some night... "
----st.Sanju

moments went by as i decayed ..when the carcass surrendered to the worms of fate..there is nothing they left.. everything they ate